Jun1

UK 2016

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This is me in London.

The last 2 days were in Birmingham and I saw my first castle! 🙂

Okay, the weather is not okay. I am just cold, it’s dreary and I think I’m being made quite aware of what the weather does with my mood. 

Holy heck. I am wanting some good food for lunch. 

Mar30

Change

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There’s something about change that is quite odd. Everyone, deep deep down, knows that we need it, but everyone is mired in this inertia. And it happens everywhere, everyday, all the time. At home, at school, at work, even at play.

I personally find change really hard. I personally dislike it quite a lot. I am a creature of routine and I like being that way in general. 

But I think I’ve reached a point where I’m going to make some changes. Some of it has begun, and it’s got generally okay responses so far, but yeah, we’ll see.

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In sync.

Mar21

Coming along

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It’s coming along, this RDA thing. I’m quite enjoying it really. Sure I’m still self conscious and all and it’s a really different crowd but I’ll just do my best. 

I’m glad I have a few projects and I want to make a difference even if it’s not immediately obvious.. 🙂

I hope the horses don’t mind me..

Jan25

Able

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These few weeks have been eye-opening, heartbreaking, encouraging and positive all at the same time. It’s been a roller coaster and I think I’ve enjoyed it so far.

So things work differently here at the Riding for the Disabled Singapore. I am still getting used to things but I actually think it’s good for me.

I like to think I’m making a contribution to someone’s day when I get them riding or even mounted. 

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One call away.

Dec21

New Start

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and here i am with a new beginning. i perhaps should have written this before i began but here it goes, at the end of Day 1 at the RDA Singapore.

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these past 6 weeks or so have been rather tumultuous and has been such a journey. i think I’ve learnt a lot from all of this being betrayed, questioning if I’ve made the right decision, almost wanting to go back on what i decided and then not; having the patience to try to be the bigger person, being the bigger person and thinking that it’s not worth it.

i felt so much support that i felt guilty about it for no reason at all, and now i am just grateful.

i wanted to make the right decision so badly it hurt and no one would tell me which was right or wrong. some told me to follow my heart (clearly wrong because that would be Karina and Mirabelle, who are simply in the -wrong- place), some tried to steer me in a direction and then immediately didnt commit simply because ‘it’s ultimately your decision’. well, yes. some told me ‘whatever you want’ but I’m sure secretly wanted me to pick a particular path. whatever it is, i made a decision, and I’m gonna ride it out. literally.

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over this whole time, there have been a few constants to whom I am immensely grateful. and no, i may not have been the kindest to them during this time, but believe me, i didnt mean it. and thank you for still being here through this entire ordeal.

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there are a few people who’ve been pillars of support this whole time and i think i wouldn’t have been able to get through days minute by minute without.

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i know the road ahead will be nothing but a climb and maybe i’ll have to make some sacrifices but i hope i will make this work.

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and winter came…